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The
crying woke me. It began as one woman sobbing, then was joined
by another, then another, until a chorus of wails pierced through
the quiet morning. The cries grew louder, then settled into
a mesmerizing rise and fall of raw emotion that left me transfixed.
Was this some religious ritual, I wondered, thinking back to
the muezzin call to prayers that echoed through every Muslim
country at dawn. Or perhaps some ancient tribal custom to start
the day?
As I
headed outside to investigate, I was viscerally reminded that
Africa is not a gentle country. It leaves no sense unassaulted.
A wave of oven-hot heat rendered me instantly sweaty as I stepped
outdoors. The air had a dank, acrid smell of cooking fires and
was heavy with the relentless dust of the dry season. I began
the ritual slapping of swarms of potentially malaria-infected
mosquitoes seeking their breakfast and carefully made my way
past the hospital's hopelessly inadequate and run-down children's
ward.
My husband
and I had been traveling for six months already, and had just
arrived in Africa to visit his aunt, a missionary nun who had
lived and worked in Zambia for the past 25 years. We were staying
with her and several other sisters at the mission's hospital
in the center of a small town in the middle of the country.
I moved
in the direction of the wailing and soon came upon an amazing
scene. There was a large gathering -- a circle of women -- some
sitting on the dusty ground, swaying rhythmically and chanting.
Others were screaming and wailing at the top of their voice,
flinging their arms and shouting. Young mothers with babies
strapped on their backs were sobbing and moaning with abandon,
tears streaming down their faces. The crying enveloped me, penetrated
me, and I stood among it motionless with hypnotic fascination.
I retreated
a bit so as not to intrude and collided with one of the hospital
nurses. Another one has died, she told me, and the women in
the family have gathered to grieve and send the spirit onward.
The men are arranging transport back to the village, and the
building of a coffin. I struggled to comprehend a ceremony that
was so unlike the quiet and restrained grief of the Irish Catholic
funerals of my upbringing.
I looked
over again at the strangely compelling scene, and focused on
the woman in the center of the circle, screaming and yelling
inconsolably and beating her chest, overcome with grief. In
anguish, she kept kneeling over a small, still shroud, sobbing.
It was her child. Its life had been stolen by one of Africa's
many thieves - AIDS, starvation or malaria. I had no idea a
heart could break so audibly.
I turned
to leave, completely overwhelmed by the sense of grief I had
witnessed. On my way back to the hospital, I became aware of
another group of women beginning their mourning cry, then a
third. During my weeklong stay at the hospital, it was a sound
I would hear with unrelenting frequency. Every morning the hospital
gates would open for visiting hours and families would stream
by, anxiously hoping that their relatives had survived the night.
As the news spread that a family member had died, the wailing
became a chorus of the many voices of grief. It was the sound
of Africa crying.
Each
of the countries I had visited in the last six months had its
memorable sound: The honking horns of Bangkok, bicycle bells
of Beijing, the haunting didgeridoo of Australia and the singing
pubs of Ireland. Heartbreak was the sound of this village. It
was the sound of a dying nation, heard every morning in hospitals
and villages all over Africa.
If only
it were silent…
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